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Void warranties

New ‘House’ episode out and it’s really freakish. The details aren’t really important but it’s full of twists as usual. But the thing that it got me thinking about is how much these people are fucked up. Then it got me thinking how damaged I was and still am in more ways than one. But then I wonder who else might be damaged? The people on the streets, the ones living in cardboard boxes? The people out night after night in the same damn bar with the same damn drinks or possibly even the person collecting Facebook friends like pokemon. So by that definition we’re all fucked.

But that somehow imposes a problem, you see. For if I were to say that I am fucked (not as much as I’d like to be mind you and not nearly the same way) then I’d be a lunatic. But if there are two of us rocking the boat then we have a click, add a few more and we have a merry little short bus heading for a class of damaged people. What next? A school? The city of the disturbed? Does it ever actually end?

Here’s my theory. We aren’t as much fucked (or at least the word somehow stops applying) as we are alienated from our own cultural background. I mean, just think about it, what do we actually describe as “fucked up”? A subject or situation with which we adversely identify. So what is it that dishes out such animosity in the first place? Are we trying to be the social norm? Hardly. If anything we all follow the same pattern as anyone else, we just get different colors of the rainbow. I think we’re just trying to discover what it actually means to live in the 21st century while our brain is still trying to grasp at straws to things that our parents, grandparents and everything that history has set in our heads from a very early age.

We don’t really see the specifics of a problem as much as we see a bunch of pieces to something that our brains identify as “damaged”. So in all fairness I really don’t see how we could pretend that anyone else is f’d till we’ve considered that we’re held in the same light by others. This in no way means that we should all join hands and dance around the statue of the all mighty turd creature in brotherly (or sisterly depending on what’s dangling on your end) harmony. By all means, hate each other as much as you can. No need to kill the other guy but hate is good. It inspires power and a deep rooted feeling of what you DON’T WANNA BE. But that’s another story.

In closing I guess the skinny is really that looking outward doesn’t mean there’s nothing to see in your own “room” and mutually the fact that you feel that you’re one short step away from falling off the deep end doesn’t mean that you’re the only one and in no way does it mean that the only thing left to do is take one last hop and skip down a short peer.


Why some technology is better than others

Now, if you haven’t already heard of it there’s this saying “I’m too poor to buy cheap things” you’d better learn it and fast. I’m a good friend of technology and I love all things flashy but there are just some things that I hate. Like I would never buy an iPod or any Apple brand device. Why? Cause it’s like the ultimate electronic version of racism. An iPhone won’t connect to a Windows computer, only to a Mac over bluetooth, an iPad won’t use normal Flash so it gets left out of the loop, an iPod will sometimes crash if connected to Windows and won’t boot at all under Linux.

This is also one of the main reasons why I have specific tastes in IT hardware and RARELY if ever deviate from them and even then it’s usually in favor of a newer yet unknown brand. Today I’m mostly pissed about one of our laptops that went on the fritz after 2 years with some weird keyboard+mouse+usb crippling bug. Fine one moment, gone the next. Figured I’d do all the routines before anything else so I tried everything from the usual Ctrl+Alt+Del to booting it to BIOS to opening it up, taking it apart and putting it back together again with no hope. So after a few hours of googleing it I found out that the specific model (Acer Aspire 5100) breaks after a while. And I don’t mean a few of them but like an epidemic. No hope, no solution, just change the motherboard and it’ll work for a while but I don’t see any cost-effective way of fixing it.

So the point is really this: 1. it’s never worth skimming a couple of hundreds off the top when it comes to electronics and 2. someone should beat the living shit out of the people that thought this would be categorized as a minor design flaw. Not all of us work for Acer so most people don’t get a discount on laptops. Never ever ever buy the brand.


Long time no see

I know, I know. It’s been a very long time since I last wrote something. But with good reason. I really really really needed to get a life. So I browsed for a new one. Going back for a few weeks…probably a month…or two. So basically I’ve recently started working at another company called Webfoo. Great people. We actually had a team building weekend recently and to tell the truth I was reluctant at first (that and severe food poisoning) but they dragged me out of the house, tied me to the bumper and took me along for the ride. Ok….it was more like the back seat, but still…

As it were I’ve been so busy these past few weeks that I hardly had time to go to the bathroom much less write. Today’s a special case cause I’m still waiting on work to do itself. :p It’s gonna be a long hard winter in hell till I’ll actually start having time to myself again but to the most part I like my job enough to actually be happy with that idea. And as the economy crumbles, stocks plummet….people race to the streets….men, women and children live in parks….an entire nation homeless….wait…the Stock Market crash is over isn’t it? Anyway, I’m just glad I have a job and even happier that I’m part of the few people that get to profess in what they like even in my….special circumstances.

In another headline I’ll recently be starting another category here that’ll focus more on my own learning curve than my personal life. So basically it’s going to be me sharing what I’ve learned in the past two years or so with anyone that wants to learn and it’s mostly going to include a bit of HTML, a bit of programming, maybe some DTP (that’s Desktop publishing for some of you out there) and some design etiquette for those of you that feel way too artsy cause let’s face it…..we work well when we all work on the same thing.

In closing I’d like to ask everyone to share their ideas on some good TV shows out there. Papa’s been feeling a bit lonely since all his favorites went on summer break. Burn Notice is slow, there’s this show called Warehouse 13 that’s awesome but sadly Wednesdays are a long wayz away, Psych takes too long to shoot and House doesn’t start till September. So if anyone has any good shows they’d like to share (first to suggest Weeds or Lost gets a free bullet through their anus) please share.

Cheers everyone.

Overkill on ABCs

It’s SPRING ladies and gentlemen. Butterflies, birds, cats, dogs, fish and maybe even gerbils. It’s a conspiracy but I’ll take it. I’m in way too good of a mood not to.

So the topic of the day is simple. Yesterday I was out with someone and it was a fun night even if a bit time consuming. So we got to talking about the current school system. Actually it all started out with one of said someone’s professors saying that video is not really an art. Now this isn’t actually the first time I’ve come to this discussion. A couple of weeks back I actually had a similar discussion with another friend who shall remain anonymous for the purpose of this discussion where we got into an argument about what art really is. Is it just painting, music, sculpture? Or is it more than that? I mean technically speaking the fact that I can copy and mime someone else’s work to the letter doesn’t make me an artist but it does make me a hell of a good professional. But then what do we have to say about Antonio Stradivari or all the craftsman that made the furniture for the french royal palace? Willie Wonka!

Can you really define art as being a solid structure of supposed free flowing thoughts put on paper, stone or textile? Wasn’t art supposed to be the imprint of one man’s soul into his work? Something done with so much thought, care and passion that it strikes a feeling of awe into anyone that looks at it? Sorry to all the people in the art community but I have to say that art has become a shallow social club where people simply try to consider themselves better than others through the fact that they can draw a straight line without a ruler and add a shadow to a drawing. And more over what does this say about the school teachers or college professors that were supposed to inspire us to be better people and to love what they’re doing? Have we really gotten to such a low that we actually not only fail to  inspire the next generation to do wonderful things and carry on what we’ve thought them but also bludgeon our own carrier choice for no apparent reason other than our own misery?

I for one honestly think that teachers like this should be put to a wall and shot for their incompetence. In some measure the stupidity of this generation can be linked directly back to them. To over- or under protective parents, teachers that fail to inspire us and seek to make our life hell in everything we do even when it’s something they themselves try to teach us all leading up to a job where too much is expected of you and too little proves the fact that you might be worth something. In retrospect my life would hardly qualify as a measuring stick to what others might think. So I’ll simply leave it to you folks and see what you think about it. Am I imagining it all or is school really going to hell?


Have you ever had the feeling that there is some sort of weird plan, some…sick and twisted part of the universe that’s just out to get you? I’m asking cause I’ve had that feeling for a while now. Like I’m the only one that gets it stuck to for no apparent reason. I’ve tried running the numbers and what I came up with is just impossible. There is no way that so many things could happen the way they do unless there is some purposeful force of nature that just has it in for me.

Some times I honestly think there’s a reason for that. But then again I probably deserver it to some extent. Maybe it’s karma. At this point I’m honestly prepared to believe anything. Either that or I finally reached my limit and need to be put down. Any thoughts?

Of god and moron

Now I know you all believe in one thing or another like god, or gods or cheese cake. But see I have a really hard time believing that there is a divine plan or someone that looks out for me if only I pray, run around naked in a cemetery or sacrifice kittens. Sometimes i just don’t know why anyone would believe in this crap. Is the 21st century so unpredictable and supernatural that we have to find alternative means of explaining our existence? Are we so desperate to find something to ground us to some mediocre existence that we need supernatural beings that shoot lightning out of their ass  to look out for us? Do we really need to consider that our parents, grandparents and dead dog are looking down on us right before an act of self-gratifying masturbation? Honestly if that’s your idea of existence than you need to get your head checked and locked away for a few weeks with no food, water or warmth and see if god really saves you from your misery. Against all odds you should think about this: If he really exists than he went out of his way to make your life suck worse than it could in most cases and the only reason why you’re not in a wheelchair is because somebody always has to be worse of than you.

Now enough of my personal life and on to more important things. A week from now it’s March the 5th and you should know what that means! It’s the debut to Tim Burton’s latest wonder, Alice in Wonderland. Now if you’re a die hard fan of his work you’re probably excited as I am. That is I would be if I didn’t have genocidal tendencies for the past months building up. Sad to say if you’re a die hard fan you probably woke up earlier than I did and already took the good seats in the theatre before I could in which case you need to DIE NOW! So I guess my luck has run out in everything as usual but hopefully I’ll still get to see the movie on the 6th. If now, I’ll seriously need to hurt someone.

In closing kids,
remember that I hate….ah…..always use thick, plated armor as a flotation device when going swimming.


Out of Service

I realize that I’ve been neglecting my duties towards my fans lately (all 3 of ’em……bastards) and it’s been some time since my last post but I assure everyone that it’s not that I didn’t want to write. In fact there is nothing I would’ve loved better. It’s just that…you know. Being sick, quitting a job, being bored, no internet, no ideas, saving the world, doing old ladies for fun and profit…….ok, I kid. Of course I had ideas.

To be fair and honest I really have a lot on my hands and it’s been sort of a bum month for me. I recently lost my job for reasons I won’t get into and from the lack of getting out my health’s been deteriorating so it’s really sad and I just don’t know what to do about it. More over I’ve been thinking about getting some vlog put up. For anyone that is not currently living in the 21st century, vloging is the video version of a blog which I’m guessing is a bulletin log. Anyway, I’ve been thinking a lot about this idea but have yet to come to a meaningful conclusion. I mean would anybody watch it outside the 3 people that actually help me propagate this shit? I dunno. But then again there might be an advantage to it seeing as most of the people that come to this website are so retarded that they can’t even READ my blog much less give a comment or feedback on it. If computers were to take over the world I’m guessing it wouldn’t be such a hard job seeing as most people can’t even read without one.

My other problem these days is that I’m just pretty much out of ideas. I’ve tried doing models which is half finished and still needs stuff done and PLEASE FOR THE NAME OF ALL THAT IS HOLY DON’T MAKE ME CONTINUE ON THAT THING… least for a while. So I’m in kind of a bind as to what would actually merit being modeled in 3D keeping in mind that it’s something I’ll want to sell. With all the competition and all the needs, what would make a worthwhile model? I’m gladly accepting any ideas you can throw at me on the subject as long as they’re logical ones. I’m not about to model you or your grandma or pet squirrel…..well…not now at least. Later on I will be accepting nude big breasted…ah…I mean female models which I WILL in fact be modeling in full feature.

Till then I’m expecting comments as always and tradition being I’m really not expecting anything.